Monday, June 8, 2009

Losing

I am feeling a bit down lately. One of my favourite bookstores is closing down and if I am not wrong, they are not going to relocate and will exit totally from the Singapore market .

Bookstore is an escapade for me. There is a special relationship I have with books, I find them very interesting, full of knowledge waiting for me to explore.

Only if you are like me, you will never understand this special feeling. It cant be described, it is like a magical connection, you want to pick them up and read through from cover to cover, you want to know a lot about them, each and everyone.

This is why I miss TaiPei so much ... the 24-hour eslite bookstore I often visit past midnight, and how I spent my time over a few good books and a great cup of coffee, and for that few hours, noone could disturb me, me and those books.

Commercial Press over at The Cathay will shut its door by end of this month. This is where I spent a great deal of my time many mornings ever since I moved to Mount Sophia since last July.

Many mornings I spent time going through a few pages before I headed to the office, this has formed a good part of my life in Singapore the last few months.

I am going to miss this real soon.

Saturday : Singapore Idol Audition

I am writing this while sitting infront of starbucks, observing the long queue infront of The Cathay.

Today the mall is hosting Singapore idol audition.

Sitting here, quite a number of emotions ran through while I look at how much all these guys and girls wanting to have a piece of their talent assured and proven.

Many would laugh it out, thnking that it is frivolous to run after fame.

What is fame really? Not until one is in it then they realize that it is nothing more than just a term itself, glamorized only by people who are not in it.

I see it from a different angle.

I see a group of boys and girls wanting to break away from their life, wanting to prove a lot beyond what others have seen them so far.

I can understand the emotion. You know you have something more, but most often than not, noone gives a damn, so you want to shout it out loud and get the attention and to prove one's worth.

The energy is amazing. The desire is amazing.

But beyond the final winner, what is behind those few thousands who never make it, many never even make it anywhere.

To dream a dream is essential. It provides hope for one to live from day to day.

To be able to cope with disappointment and rejection and multiple failures is another matter.

The best I have seen in life is, while waiting for your turn to stand on the center stage, one must know how to build the internal strength. For when that day
arrives, one can then manage all the load that will be placed on the shoulder.

There is a balance in life. Fame comes with a lot of sacrifices too. One can't just dream of the good but unwilling to accept the bad.

While waiting for your turn, you better take time to build your internal strength.

There is such thing we call it "5 min's fame". We all know it well.